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Tuesday, September 27, 2011

Decision: Difficult but Hard

If you follow me on Facebook (www.facebook.com/wanyman), you'll know that I recently mentioned that I had a difficult decision to make, but cryptically, I didn't mention what that decision was.  Now, I think, I'm ready to tell you.

I have decided to put off college again for a while.

There are good reasons for this, of course.  Believe me, it was difficult to make.  As you know, I started back in college last winter, after taking a fifteen year break.  I went for a total of two quarters (winter and spring), and graduated from Freshman to Sophomore.  I was also signed up and ready to go back this Fall, but for various reasons, I pulled out at the last minute.

One of the reasons it was so hard to make this decision was because I had so much support from everyone for my decision to go back to school.  I got a lot of praise from family and friends, and I even made the Deans List my first quarter back.  School was great fun, and it felt so good to be learning again in a professional, class-room setting, even if most of my classmates were young enough to be my children! 

But I decided that I needed to stay home, at least until my wife finishes school.

Let's me honest: her job prospects are much better than mine.  She's healthy, and has a bright future ahead of her.  Me, I'm pretty much unemployable.  Who'd want an employee who could go completely paralyzed, or have a seizure, with little or no warning?

Also, we recently moved to a small town, an hour outside of Spokane, and 45 minutes away from the university.  I began to feel very strongly that my kids needed a parent at home, someone they or their teachers could rely on to come to school if they happened to be sick, or hurt, or whatever. 

So once again, I'm the stay-at-home dad.  And that's OK.  I actually feel right about it.  I feel that I am where the Lord wants me to be, and that's a good feeling.  Sometimes, especially as a parent, we must sacrifice our own desires for others. 

And now I must go; I've got dishes to do!